Category: Undiagnosed Illness
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Confessions of a Formerly Toxic Person
I used to be toxic. I was a train wreck, a flying monkey, and a whole three-ring circus all by myself. It took me a lot of years to recognize my toxic traits because it’s easier to deny, deflect, and project rather than accept, admit, and own. The key word is formerly. I changed.
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Traveling with Agoraphobia: Mental Illness
Agoraphobia makes it hard for me to leave the house for small things. It causes major issues when planning a vacation. Here’s my recent experience traveling with agoraphobia.
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Traveling in Eastern U.S.: 11 States in 7 Days!
Our grand adventure was indeed grand. We went through 11 states (And Washington D.C.) in 7 days. During that week, we drove over 2,500 miles and spent more than 60 hours total in the vehicle. Traveling in Eastern U.S. was tons of fun. Here’s what happened during our adventure.
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Recognizing Emotions: Digging Deep to Identify the Real Emotion
Recognizing emotions and correctly identifying those emotions and causes is important. Growing up poor creates a mindset that you don’t outgrow. Sometimes that mindset does things to my mental health and I can connect my emotions to living in poverty. Yesterday threw me for a loop and I could not understand why. Now I do.…
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Undiagnosed Illness and Mental Health
Having an undiagnosed illness is frustrating. It weighs on your mental health. It means the future is uncertain. You have no idea if it will get worse.
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Health and Mental Health: We Have Problems and Are Adding More.
Mayday. Mayday. We’re going down. All of you know I have several mental illnesses including bipolar disorder. I also have several physical illnesses including an undiagnosed illness. As my list of troubles keeps growing, I’m exhausted, frustrated, angry, and fed up with all of it. My health and mental health are going south.
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Mortality and Suicidal Ideation
Let’s talk about thoughts on mortality and suicidal ideation. As I look back at some of my posts, I realize that I have been censoring myself in ways I promised I wouldn’t do. I didn’t do this before, and I never intended to do it now. It’s going to stop.
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A Sense of Dread: Bipolar Disorder
I have an overwhelming sense of dread. My mind is convinced I am standing on the edge of a precipice, and life keeps giving me reasons why this is justified. I’ve told a select few people (and now the world, I guess) that I feel like I am on borrowed time and won’t be here…
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Hypomania with Bipolar Disorder: Scheduling Events During Episodes
As I’ve said before, I am trying to keep myself from falling into a major depressive episode. This has resulted in me being in and out of hypomania trying to keep myself balanced. Hypomania with bipolar disorder causes a number of problems.
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Depression, Anger, and Mania: My Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms
I know the darkest depths of depression. I’ve been to hell and back several times when in the throes of depression. I’ll fight with all my might to avoid the darkness at the bottom of depression. That has led to some unhealthy but necessary coping mechanisms.