Mayday. Mayday. We’re going down. All of you know I have several mental illnesses including bipolar disorder. I also have several physical illnesses including an undiagnosed illness. As my list of troubles keeps growing, I’m exhausted, frustrated, angry, and fed up with all of it. My health and mental health are going south.
Continue reading “Health and Mental Health: We Have Problems and Are Adding More.”
Let’s talk about thoughts on mortality and suicidal ideation. As I look back at some of my posts, I realize that I have been censoring myself in ways I promised I wouldn’t do. I didn’t do this before, and I never intended to do it now. It’s going to stop.
I have an overwhelming sense of dread. My mind is convinced I am standing on the edge of a precipice, and life keeps giving me reasons why this is justified. I’ve told a select few people (and now the world, I guess) that I feel like I am on borrowed time and won’t be here in five years. I recently backed that down to two.
As I’ve said before, I am trying to keep myself from falling into a major depressive episode. This has resulted in me being in and out of hypomania trying to keep myself balanced. Hypomania with bipolar disorder causes a number of problems.
Continue reading “Hypomania with Bipolar Disorder: Scheduling Events During Episodes”
I’m finding it hard to sit down and write out how I feel. I’m finding it hard to keep my head high when dealing with judgment. I’m finding it hard to deal with hateful attitudes and rude commentary. I’m just finding it hard to deal with recent changing moods in bipolar disorder.
Continue reading “Changing Moods in Bipolar Disorder: Sorting out Feelings”
Years ago I ran a blog called All About Bipolar. My humorous lists were pretty popular. I took the time to dig up “You know you’re experiencing psychosis if…” to post here.
Continue reading “You Know You’re Experiencing Psychosis If: Humor”
Years ago I had a blog called All About Bipolar. Some of my most popular posts on that blog were my humorous lists. I took the time to dig up “You know you’re manic if” and “You know you’re depressed if” to post here.
Continue reading “You Know You’re Manic or Depressed If: Humor – A Funny List”
Years ago I ran a blog called All About Bipolar. (Some of you knew me then. Some of you didn’t.) Some of the most popular posts were my humorous lists. I took the time to dig up “You know you’re bipolar if” to post here.
Continue reading “You Know You’re Bipolar If: Humor – A Funny List”
I know the darkest depths of depression. I’ve been to hell and back several times when in the throes of depression. I’ll fight with all my might to avoid the darkness at the bottom of depression. That has led to some unhealthy but necessary coping mechanisms.
Continue reading “Depression, Anger, and Mania: My Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms”
I am currently dealing with a depressive episode that varies in severity. It changes every day. A mixture of things makes me feel like I am disappearing as a person. I feel myself fading away. Am I disappearing?
